I miss you.

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Just like the lyrics of Blink-182’s song. This is my life in a nutshell when it comes to relationships ending. This probably applies to a good amount of other people as well. I’m going to try and pick the words apart and explain what I think they mean. Music video link from YouTube is at the bottom.

Hello there the angel from my nightmare
The shadow in the background of the morgue

-To me, this interprets I think the obvious. The angel would be his ex girlfriend that he is constantly thinking about and is causing him so much pain.

The unsuspecting victim of darkness in the valley
We can live like Jack and Sally if we want

-To me, “the victim of darkness” is referring to depression. Jack and Sally would mean living like the average, normal couple. Depending on how you define normal.

Where you can always find me
And we’ll have Halloween on Christmas
And in the night we’ll wish this never ends
We’ll wish this never ends

-Here I believe he is saying that he will always be available to her. That they can do whatever they want (Halloween on Christmas). The last part meaning that they will be so happy, and well, they won’t want it to end.

Where are you and I’m so sorry
I cannot sleep I cannot dream tonight
I need somebody and always

-This part I think is obvious as well. He is sitting and waiting for her return. Apologizing over and over for his mistakes and maybe what she was put through. All of this together, keeps him from sleeping at night. “Needing somebody and always” can be interpreted as him being a serial monogamist or he just doesn’t want to be lonely anymore.

This sick strange darkness
Comes creeping on so haunting every time
And as I stared I counted
The Webs from all the spiders

-Again, I think we see the depression and hurt affecting him every time she pops into his head. The webs could be he can’t think clearly because of how he feels.

Catching things and eating their insides
Like indecision to call you
and hear your voice of treason
Will you come home and stop the pain tonight
Stop this pain tonight

-At this point, his thought of her, are eating him up and adding/causing the pain. He doesn’t know whether he should call her or not, hoping to hear her give in to him and come back to stop the pain.

Don’t waste your time on me you’re already
The voice inside my head (I miss you miss you)

-This is where I had to really think. My thoughts are that she isn’t coming back. Therefore, he is using reverse psychology on her. Kind of Jedi mind tricking her. Basically saying “he couldn’t possibly be more hurt.” Kind of daring her to see for herself. Wanting her to see that things would be the way they were before his sickness. In the end, still reminding her that he misses her.

This would describe my last relationship to the T! How I felt, where I was and so on. Just follow the song and you will see.

blink-182 – I Miss You: http://youtu.be/s1tAYmMjLdY

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The Murdered Veteran..

One if the big topics on the local news is about a neighborhood called North Highlands. Its definitely not one you would be caught walking alone at night in. And in some parts if you’re white Mexican, Asian or any other race aside from African American, you wouldn’t walk around during the day.

North Highlands is somewhat, well who am I kidding. Its ghetto! One of those areas where there is a liquor store on every corner, every street has a run down strip mall and of course your hookers and johns. I shouldn’t say its all bad because there are a plentiful amount of African American churches.

Recently there has been a rise of home invasions in that area. Just so happens, one of the homes was a white, World War 2 veteran. I’m not saying it was anything racial. In fact I’m almost positive it wasn’t. It doesn’t matter what race did what. Its wrong no matter what color of person does this. During this home invasion, the elderly veteran was murdered. No details have been released yet.

A couple of things came to mind when I first read about this story. One was, what were his last moments like. I mean, did he try to defend his property or was he just flat out murdered when all he would have done was allow them to take what they wanted.

If he died defending his property, which they say nothing material is ever worth risking your life over, what did he do and how did he try to defend it. If he did defend, I really hope he gave them the fight of his life. Because I’m willing to bet this invasion was planned out and they knew what they would be going up against. Or hopefully what they thought they would be. Not that I want to make death glamorous or anything, but I think you know what I’m trying to say, when I say, I hope he did something that hurt them, that when he passed, he got the last laugh. Its obvious from the news his was the only body in the home. So hopefully he did something to one, if not all of them, to remind them the rest of their lives what happened that day they made that decision to enter his home.

What if he was the type that said “no take whatever you want, please don’t hurt me.” Or something along those lines. And if he did say that, why was there a need to murder him? I don’t know that a person can be more of a coward than to murder an elderly man who was giving you what you want.

This is where my anger came out. I wanted nothing more than to track these people down and curb stomp their faces, put a bullet between their eyes, or simply torture them for what they did to him.

Is there a time when this anger is ok? I’m sure the answer is yes. Because its always ok to be angry at something like this. Its just how you handle your anger that matters.

I feel so sad for him and his family. They have lost a brave man who served our country. And for that, thank you sir!